"..... many of the failures we’ve experienced both personally and in ministry have come from a very unnatural environment we call consumer church. It costs too much and therefore puts incredible pressure on us to prop up the system to keep our livelihood going. It’s made heroes only of those who could speak eloquently or lead a large multitude into a shallow pool, but we’ve died in the process. As we got sucked into the vortex of putting on the Sunday performance for a group of people that may or may not want to actually follow Jesus , we shot arrows into our own souls and stopped following him ourselves. Everything we did was under the guise of the language of discipleship, but in the end we can barely recall actual moments of being a disciple ourselves."